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1. I cannot see myself as normal and have been trying to find why for a long time. As of now I want to know how many of these I actually have and which ones I don't know about yet: General Anxiety Disorder; Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder; Avoidant Personality Disorder and many more.

2. Apart from these I am certain that I have a inferiority complex and am thus never happy with anything I do and/or make... uploading or showing anything anywhere really requires me to pull myself together... and even then I have bad thoughts only looking at it again and reading any comments.

3. On top of that I can't forget any mistakes I make. Some nights I cannot sleep at all because I keep thinking of different ones... some of them date from my earliest childhood, even.

4. Add to that the fact that I am too perfectionistic, meaning I see almost everything that did not go much better than expected to have been a mistake.

5. They are always my fault, too. Everything bad I am involved in is my fault.

6. I used to love playing games and thought that I am one of the better players out there... in my childhood. Now I painfully learnt I am probably one of the worst (objectively seen and proven by many others). Seeing how as a child I spent 3/4 of the day enjoying games... it's breaking my heart. I still play a lot of games, sure, but when they are too hard I end up in a tantrum, usually. Competitive games or online ones where there's no option to play alone I can't play either.

7. My English and German are progressively getting worse... I believe. One or two years ago I had been way better (relatively seen).

8. I like to tell others of my various shortcomings to gain acceptance and be liked. If they try to prove the opposite of what I tell them, I can't accept it in fear of being forgotten too early.

Then again I advise you take all of these with a grain of salt. Probably only 8 is really true and not inane ranting.

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